I hope you slept well in your quarters last night

I know it’s not quite what everyone makes it up to be, but we try to uphold an image

I hope morning supper served you well

You’ll need a good amount of energy for the day ahead

Good sir, your post on board is up there, in the roost

Seeing as though you were found at sea, you will see well over it

As for you Madamoiselle, you will be my first hand lady

You will be my eyes, my intuition, my shadow

I know this puts you two in a predicament but you must understand, good sir

If I allow a woman to run around on board a pirate ship, she wouldn’t make it a second day

Also, being the captain, I must be alpha, and the alpha always has the woman

It’s a control thing

Not only will it be good to have a woman’s opinion on certain matters, but more importantly

It will keep both her, you, and all my men out of trouble, if she be just by my side

You, though, run up into your roost and keep a strong watch out

You never know what you may find on a beautiful day like today

There is no lunch supper on this ship, only night supper

After night supper, you’ll be switched out at watch

If you have any questions, ask anyone

If you have any concerns

Keep them to yourself

See you at supper

I always eat with my men

At night supper

I’m just one guy trying to find out what it takes to be a man

These plans, though, don’t come with instructions manuals, and

Every year seems like I’m taking just another step, but

In a life built of innumerable stories and paragraphs

Another step’s just another drop in the bucket

So fuck it

I’m doing my best to get better

May not seem like it in every moment

Lo and behold, I don’t announce every time

I do something different; choose to do better

It’s a battle I’m fighting in a war I’m waging

Against myself, within myself, for the world at large

Don’t pull me from the vine before I’m ripe

I’m just a boy in this life trying to get it right finally

Nobody ever said it was going to be easy

Of course, I could be better than I am

Then again, consider me human

Forgive me

I’m with stupid

Tells you something you don’t want to read

You try to ignore it

Pretend it’s written in a language you can’t quite understand

Spelling it out in front of your face

With big, bold characters

The sign says it all

Looking down upon without a doubt

Never needing to continue the conversation

Always in control of the last word

The sign on the wall

It’s flipping you the bird

It’s biting its tongue

It’s staring you right in the eyes, praying

Do it, I dare you

Become the rubber

So I may realize the truth

So uncool

Our rights are on the wall

Hanging by a thread

Trying to catch a breath, but

We’re better off dead

Sign’s on the what, again?

No worries about that now

Turn your head away

Follow the leader instead

Too much time, paper
Effort, and other shit
Just too much

Weight in my hands
Slowing my wrists down
Most of it’s sound trash, anyway
But there’s a few syllables of gold hidden
Anyhow

And so, I tear
Down spines, through bodies
One slice at a time
Building a rock pile of rhymes
Up from the ashes of a man
Who’s only passing
Bye

And now, I begin to climb
This mountain all my own
To the unforeseen horizon
From my forgotten home

Don’t worry about me, though
I’ll survive by verb alone

What’s one mans rubbish is
Another man’s life work

Keep your hands from where you shouldn’t
This is nothing new

But a man now
Of a boy I once knew
Is nothing I remember, except
When I need a good excuse

Too much (just too-too much)
Too much (too-too much, too much)

Miracles for the mayhem
Beauty in the crazy
Stimulants on the sedatives
Afflicted fucking the giving end

This is nothing new
Within myself, no
This is nothing new
Throughout my hell

Reminded of all these things here
In my own handwriting

So many poems left unwritten

So many more left to be lived

So many poems, just
Never enough pages

Blind
But hearing red

Barely breathing
Just not yet dead

Off all fours, getting up from concrete floors
Resisting anything but truth, gravity, or friction

See, the rhetoric you spit with such defined convictions
I can only consider honestly misconstrued diction

If you wield weapons, son
You really aught to tighten the grip
On your sweating tongues
Slip decision

I’m on my way, soon in your face
Can you taste this moment yet?

Everyone shares each breath inhaling
Everyone bleeds blue blood exhaling

I’m beat, but
I’m certainly not out
I’m getting up again
Right here off this ground

I may be blind but I ain’t dumb

You see colors?

I see sound

A poem, for my lovely fiance.

I’m asleep for all the wrong reasons
They say I lie dreaming as if in completely different seasons
But there’s no excuse left
On a path headed for least resistance, I rest
Believe me, this

Towards a future brighter than any tomorrow
Shining finer than twilight in your eyes, delighting
Every sense left alive within myself, a shell
One vessel of life, of levels, handed one goals
To be happy enough to extol only love
Believe this, please, you must

We’re on a path destined for greater things
And upon deaf ears we’ll scream just to sing
Because we are more than mere human beings, you see

Wake me up
Now here’s a new idea

Let’s plant a garden with only conscious seeds
And take the time to pluck all the destructive weeds
Be ready to reap this beauty so fully, so sure
Not a drop of water was wrought with negativity, so pure
So each thought may blossom into full bloom
Into flowers of a fruit that will defy relativity

Wake me up

I’m asleep with no good reason to still be dreaming
Reality’s flavors have got everything on
Anything imaginary
Believe me

Wake your self up

You want to feel this
Shake it up a bit

Wake me down

Actually
It’s more the opposite, because
Right now a child’s cries are being implored
While another bully’s actions are being ignored
As every adult around is busy dealing their next score

There must be somewhere safer

Because right now, dependencies our greatest ally, yeah
Technologies infallible and I’m just outdated, and
We’re all being born in a post modern age, and everyone’s
Lost, looking for the next score somewhere safer, unfortunately
Right now, someone is needing some love and
Right now, someone’s needing their brother
Right now, another could use a mother
And the signs are all speaking latin

There must be somewhere
There must be somewhere safer
There must be somewhere safer we can go

There must be someplace, somewhere

The universe is aligning with other universes right now
There’s nowhere else we should want to be
No, there’s nothing we can do; there’s nothing to be said
Except every last breath
Just breathe

You and I are aligning right now

You and I
A line

It’s like we were already enlightened before we realized

You and I

A light

I hope you read this

Kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me
Kill me again; He said

Kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me
Kill me again; She said

Go take hold
It’s already over
One deep breath
Then just pull
Yeah
Kill me
Again

Kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me
Kill me again; I said

Kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me
Kill me again; You said

I know
You know
I know
You know
I know
You know
Nothing

You know
I know
You know
I know
You know
I know
Nothing

But nothing is something
Like everything comes from nowhere
Only to bubble up to the surface, upon the cusp
Of something greater than once was

Manifest

Kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me
Kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me
Kill me, kill me, kill me, so I may
So I may, so I may, so I may
Finally

Live